Monday, May 9, 2011

It's the end of the world as we know it.

Dude I’m really just high on life today. I woke up late this morning to a stupendously gorgeous day outside here in southern West Virginia. We kicked ass yesterday at the resort for Mother’s Day Brunch. I got to share a visit and supper with my mother. It’s the month of my birth, spring is in its full glory, I’ll turn 39 years old in a few weeks which also marks 7 years in recovery from alcoholism and one year living on the farm in West by God Virginia. I’ve spent the past 3 hours completely dicking off…went for an atv ride with Rudy, laid out in the meadow together with the sun shining on us just digging life and looking at the clouds float by in the sky. A little inner conflict about being so “lazy” today. Why is it that I feel like I must always be “doing” something, getting something accomplished, striving, reaching? I think a lot of people are like this, not just me. Can I just shut it down for a minute and enjoy the blessings of life?

Gotta write something about the craziness of the video I shot last week going viral and creating a shit storm of controversy. The negative feedback I’ve gotten about the video has been at times hilarious, confusing and sad. I like the way the media outlets covered the bit. I dug the jokes the late night comedians made about it. I’ve enjoyed the positive feedback from people who like the video simply for what it is. But it seems my little antic brought out all the egotistical blowhards and their self-important quasi-informed hot air. Honestly I’ve avoided people like you my entire life, you holier-than-thou types, you pseudo-experts, you sniffing down your noses, you arrogant, self-important cry babies, you humorless, self-aggrandizing trolls…I’m glad I pissed you off. I’m thrilled I got under your skin. Because you see every single thing you wrote about me and my little 49 second video says everything in the world about you as a person and literally nothing about me. You don’t know me from Adam. You don’t have the slightest clue what I’m like as a human being here on this planet. I said “Jump!” and you said “How high?” You got played, served, PWNED.

So tell me…howww does it feeeeel? Awwww, how does it feeeeel? To be on your own….with no direction home…like a complete UNKNOWN….like a rolling stone.

Me? I feel fine. It’s the end of the world as we know it. And I feel fine.

Fine.